Spin Me Right Round, Baby

It's been over a month and I still have no idea what to write about.  I've gone over it and over it and nothing exciting or interesting pops to mind.  I guess my brain is just... dry.   Well, except for me obsessing over our upcoming trips out of country.  And bills.  And trying to save... Continue Reading →

When Gray Becomes Black

Today was a bad day.   None of my days have been easy lately, but today was especially hard. This time of year is always difficult for me.  The weather starts to change.  The skies turn gray.  It rains.  It gets cold.  My mood, inevitably, darkens with the cycle of the seasons.  I become gloomy, slow,... Continue Reading →

Upside Down

My house is currently upside down.  It's a disaster.  Clean clothes need to be folded.  Dishes need to be washed.  Beds need to be made.  Toilets need to be scrubbed. The current state of my abode is just a metaphor for the entirety of my life at this moment in time. And this post is... Continue Reading →

Unstable

I can not get my head on straight this morning. It's a morning of sadness, anger and fear. It's a morning of mourning. Hell, it's been a year of mourning. And I am ready for it to be done. We're coming up on the one-year death date for my dad. On December 17th it will... Continue Reading →

It’s Not You. It’s Me.

i·so·late verb ˈīsəˌlāt/ 1. cause (a person or place) to be or remain alone or apart from others. I isolate. Yup. I admit it. I isolate. If I'm depressed, I isolate. My depressive episodes are all-encompassing. They are brutal and ruinous and each one that I escape relatively unscathed makes me question whether I'll survive... Continue Reading →

Can You Hear Me Now?

When you are in an “elevated” mood your mind will move faster than your mouth can keep up. But trust me, your mouth will try. Rapid, pressured speech is pretty normal for me when I get like this. Verbal vomit. I just prattle and babble and run off at the mouth about anything and everything.... Continue Reading →

The Happy Honeymooner

Here we are again. We're at the start of a beautiful friendship. Just me and my mania. It always starts out so very... friendly. And positive. No negativity. No hard feelings. That's where we are right now~ the honeymoon phase. Why do I look at it like a happy little honeymoon? Well, let's do a... Continue Reading →

Stable

It has taken years for my doctors and psychiatrists to finally work out a cocktail of meds that actually work to balance out my moods and keep me stable enough to pay my bills, brush my teeth, make my bed, feed my kids. Well, my kids are old enough to feed themselves these days, but... Continue Reading →

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