Greetings From A Squiggly Mind
Just some very random ruminations from the depths of my squiggly mind……..
Who am I? Who is this woman I’ve become? Independent Resilient Powerful Adventurous Strong I am not the girl I used to be And I have your betrayal to thank for that. So, thank you. Thank you for leaving me on my own To learn, To live, To work, To drive, To travel, To excel,... Continue Reading →
Here I sit, staring at a blank screen. Unable to put my thoughts to words on paper. My therapist wants me to write. She requested that I do so months ago. I never could figure out how. My writing is dead. Something killed that part of me years ago and the past year just put... Continue Reading →
Can I love the new you? Where did you go? The man I knew Gone Missing Broken Bound by guilt Regret Self-loathing Can't sleep Can't love Me, but she... Is she the one? You happily ever after Does she, Can she Love you like I did I don't believe that anyone can What did I... Continue Reading →
Ghosts of the past haunt me taunt me try to drag me in down tumbling and crumbling a shell of myself I'm getting stronger It doesn't feel like it most days most days I feel weak broken beaten abandoned alone unlovable You did that with a ghost of the past
How could you? They need you Father Friend Support Always there in there corner putting them first you've broken them broken you They fear for you What if it all crumbles, tumbles down Where will you be? Who will you know that wants to be a part of your life? That wants to know you... Continue Reading →
What is wrong with me? Why was i not enough? Have you always loved her? You "thought" of her throughout the years. How often? And what did you think about? A reunion? An affair? A lost opportunity? The one that got away? Did you ever love me anyways? How could you really and think of... Continue Reading →
You voice immediate flashback undoing all the work forgetting the sound of you the smell of you the feel of you the soul of you Your smile your voice brings me back brings me back to "I've fallen in love with someone else" Your lying voice keeping your secret still from friends from family were... Continue Reading →
Where do I start? You were my muse. You left me alone; sleeping, living on my own. You've changed so much. I never would've imagined I'd see you become this person that you have become. Selfish, unkind, cold-hearted and cruel. No touch, no love, no affection after you found her again. Your missed opportunity. We... Continue Reading →
Why don't I cry? Why don't I yell? Why can't I scream, hit, throw things? I walked away in the blink of an eye No time to think An instant decision made My final act of rebellious pride. I can't believe I did it. so unlike me Where is my need to grovel at your... Continue Reading →
It's time for a new me. But who will I be? Who am I? What do I like? What should I be? What CAN I be? I'm not a hobby girl. I barely read anymore. Maybe I'll start reading again. I don't have a "who I used to be". This has always been me. 15.... Continue Reading →
Greetings From A Squiggly Mind 