Just some very random ruminations from the depths of my squiggly mind……..
Where do I start? You were my muse. You left me alone; sleeping, living on my own. You've changed so much. I never would've imagined I'd see you become this person that you have become. Selfish, unkind, cold-hearted and cruel. No touch, no love, no affection after you found her again. Your missed opportunity. We... Continue Reading →
Why don't I cry? Why don't I yell? Why can't I scream, hit, throw things? I walked away in the blink of an eye No time to think An instant decision made My final act of rebellious pride. I can't believe I did it. so unlike me Where is my need to grovel at your... Continue Reading →
It's time for a new me. But who will I be? Who am I? What do I like? What should I be? What CAN I be? I'm not a hobby girl. I barely read anymore. Maybe I'll start reading again. I don't have a "who I used to be". This has always been me. 15.... Continue Reading →
Moving on. I wake up alone but on my own I have my coffee alone but on my own I get ready for work and I drive. Alone but on my own I take my meds all on my own I sit. In a quiet space. Alone But I exist. I'm not thriving but I'm... Continue Reading →
Words forsake me Nothing to be said You have so much in common Why try so hard Why change who you are You have a connection Not with the real you Who is this you Your dress Your music Your spirituality Your heartlessness Your abandonment You wanted more than me You needed what I am... Continue Reading →
“I’ve fallen in love with someone” The words that would change my life forever. The thing is that I knew. I already knew in my heart that that was the case. I already knew that he was cheating on me. Four or more months with no sex, no affection, no snuggles, no kisses. I’m not... Continue Reading →
2024 is here and it’s bringing a lot of change for me and mine. I’ve made of point of setting goals and plan on working to achieve them. First up: pay off our attorney and get this financial mess under control. As embarrassing as we find this bankruptcy situation to be, we’re relieved on some... Continue Reading →
Empty spaces Blackness enshrines A world once sparkling With words, phrases Poetry Love and passion Fear and pain Blackness envelopes Her every thought A blacksmith of emotion Emotions so raw She wishes to return in time To a world of words They must be strewn Across the page
Picture this: a person assaults and injures another person and is arrested and charged with felony corporal injury on a spouse or cohabitant (with prior felonies). At first, bail was set at $100,000 and knowing that he didn’t/doesn’t have the kind of money it would take to post any kind of bail makes you feel... Continue Reading →
What would my childhood self think of adult me? How would she see me? Would she see herself as a hero, role-model? Or would she use what she knows to choose not to be what she became? I think it would likely be a mix of all of the above. Sadly, I am not proud... Continue Reading →
Greetings From A Squiggly Mind 