Just some very random ruminations from the depths of my squiggly mind……..
Whelp, I did it. I went on a cruise. My first cruise. My first cruise and a nude cruise, to boot. I never thought I'd catch myself on a boat in the middle of the ocean, but that's exactly where I found myself over the past two weeks. Aside from a few tears here and... Continue Reading →
A new year = a new normal. From December 2017 to December 2018 was a trying time. Within that span of a year we; my sister, my husband, my kids and myself, lost a dog, a father, a brother, my husband's step-mom and a nephew. Death seems to have surrounded us. 2019 has got to... Continue Reading →
December 13th was like any other day in my house. Well, maybe it was even a little lighter than any other day in recent history. I wasn't bogged down with the sadness and guilt that's been slowly eating at me every day for the past year. I wasn't dwelling on the fact that my dad... Continue Reading →
Today was a bad day. None of my days have been easy lately, but today was especially hard. This time of year is always difficult for me. The weather starts to change. The skies turn gray. It rains. It gets cold. My mood, inevitably, darkens with the cycle of the seasons. I become gloomy, slow,... Continue Reading →
The holidays are upon us and this year is, hopefully, closing out a year of loss and pain and anger and sadness. Over the past year we have lost a beloved pet (she was with us for 15 years), my dad, my brother, a grandmother and my daughter's innocence and security. Having lived through the... Continue Reading →
My house is currently upside down. It's a disaster. Clean clothes need to be folded. Dishes need to be washed. Beds need to be made. Toilets need to be scrubbed. The current state of my abode is just a metaphor for the entirety of my life at this moment in time. And this post is... Continue Reading →
a·buse verb /əˈbyo͞oz/ 1. use (something) to bad effect or for a bad purpose; misuse. synonyms: misuse, misapply, misemploy; More 2. treat (a person or an animal) with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly. synonyms: mistreat, maltreat, ill-treat, treat badly; More This morning has started the same way every other morning has for... Continue Reading →
I can not get my head on straight this morning. It's a morning of sadness, anger and fear. It's a morning of mourning. Hell, it's been a year of mourning. And I am ready for it to be done. We're coming up on the one-year death date for my dad. On December 17th it will... Continue Reading →
I've said it before and I'll say it again: Some days I understand why some animals eat their young. My youngest daughter is one of the most stubborn, quick-tempered, dramatic people I have ever met (nothing like her mother at all 😉 ). She has a tendency to over-react when things are not perfectly in... Continue Reading →
Trying to find a job can be a painstaking, painful, difficult experience. Trying to find a job after not having to look for one for six years is excruciating. And, yet, here I am. Once upon a time I was a highly qualified, easily hire-able job candidate. I had skills, availability, work history and temperament... Continue Reading →
Greetings From A Squiggly Mind 