Yup. Again. I guess it’s not technically new. But it’s new for 2018. Does that count?
First of all, I quit smoking. It’s been eight days since I’ve had a cigarette. Most people would probably say “I’m quitting” this early on, but I refuse to. I quit. End of story. I’m not picking them back up. They are expensive. They smell. They are slowly killing me (and early, I might add).
I feel 99% better already. I’m not all stuffy-headed. I can breathe when I wake up. I’m not wheezing and coughing. I am not huffing and puffing when I walk anywhere. It doesn’t feel like anyone is standing on my chest. It’s ah-maze-ing. AND between my husband and I (yes, he quit, too) we’ve saved $128.00 to date. In eight days. Horrific to think about the money we’ve wasted over the past, what, five years?
Second up: I’m back at the gym. Okay, so it’s only been two days, but that’s two days of progress. That’s two days that I wasn’t sitting at the computer for at least an hour. That’s two days that I spent at least some time acknowledging that I need and want to get healthy. That’s two days that I made an effort on my own behalf. And tomorrow will be three.
Lastly, I am determined to change my eating habits. I have to. I know the bigger picture, health-wise, depends on it. What’s the point in quitting smoking or going to the gym if I continue to allow my diabetes to be out of control and my weight issues to run my life?
I will admit this last one is a struggle for me. I am not good at controlling my love-hate relationship with food. Actually, it’s more of a hate-hate relationship 99% of the time so I don’t fully understand the addiction to food that I have, but it’s there. And it’s time I conquered it. I spent this afternoon looking up diabetic menu plans and healthy (diabetic) recipes. I adjusted and rewrote my shopping list for the week. Even my youngest was looking up healthy snacks for me and helping find recipes that I can incorporate into my diet. (I love my kids!)
I know this can be done. I know I will need support; more than most others, I’ll admit. I know I can conquer myself. I just have to be kind and patient and remain steadfast. So, tomorrow I will not buy a pack of cigarettes, I will go to the gym and I will begin on my journey to healthier eating to round out the new me.
Wish me luck.