Just some very random ruminations from the depths of my squiggly mind……..
What is a mental illness? “According to Mayo Clinic Mental illness, also called mental health disorders, refers to a wide range of mental health conditions — disorders that affect your mood, thinking and behavior. Examples of mental illness include depression, anxiety disorders, schizophrenia, eating disorders and addictive behaviors”. My diagnoses and definitions: #1 Bipolar Disorder-1... Continue Reading →
Nobody knows that I… (a blog prompt)I am an open book.I struggle with mental illness.I am a liberal.I do not support the death penalty.I support LGBTQ+ persons and their rights.I love cats.I love my husband.I love my kiddos.I am a daughter, a sister, a wife, a mother and now a grandmother.I am generous and empathetic.I... Continue Reading →
ThenThen you held my handAnd we dancedWe talkedThenThen you kissed meYou let me into the lightYou dragged me into happinessThenThen we moved forwardInto the futureA future unknownThenThen we were full of hopeFull of fearFull of loveThenThen it was perfection
She dances on the cliffs The crash of the waves rush against their faces Elegant and proud Shadowy hair awash in moonlight Sapphire eyes reflect the stars A beacon in the night The goddess rises within her Screaming, hammering Reaching to escape Her gown flits around her A cloud of security and magic One last... Continue Reading →
The ground soars A puddling sky Buildings reach deep Into the depths A plane carries me To far away places I witness myself Where I really exist Staring into the black Yearning for freedom Covetous of experience A subterranean dream
Why did I stop writing? And when? I can’t remember and don’t have an answer to either of those questions. All I know is that it’s gone. I’m gone. Or least a part of me is. And make no mistake, writing was an essential part of me. It was who I was in a lot... Continue Reading →
My babiesRadiant bluesSeafoam greensRuby reds My babiesSmartFunnyKind My babiesMy worldMy lifeMy loves My babiesEverythingTo me.Everything I hopedThey would be.
How do you know when your last goodbye is your last goodbye?I have had a lot of goodbyes over the past few years. Just like anyone else, I never realized they were the final goodbye.I said goodbye one day, I can’t remember the date, to my very best friend from childhood to adulthood. I can’t... Continue Reading →
I can’t get out of my head today. I’m antsy and agitated and have burned through everything I needed to do at home. I have no job to distract me and can’t get one for a few more months. I’m exhausted, but need to keep moving. It’s a mental exhaustion. I want to crawl into... Continue Reading →
Wings of jetLift them highI see you overheadDaring me to flightYou call to meYour majestyYour graceYour voiceSpeaking my dreamOf soaring and seeingI seek your freedom
Greetings From A Squiggly Mind 