Greetings From A Squiggly Mind
Just some very random ruminations from the depths of my squiggly mind……..
Here I sit, staring at a blank screen. Unable to put my thoughts to words on paper. My therapist wants me to write. She requested that I do so months ago. I never could figure out how. My writing is dead. Something killed that part of me years ago and the past year just put... Continue Reading →
Moving on. I wake up alone but on my own I have my coffee alone but on my own I get ready for work and I drive. Alone but on my own I take my meds all on my own I sit. In a quiet space. Alone But I exist. I'm not thriving but I'm... Continue Reading →
What would my childhood self think of adult me? How would she see me? Would she see herself as a hero, role-model? Or would she use what she knows to choose not to be what she became? I think it would likely be a mix of all of the above. Sadly, I am not proud... Continue Reading →
What is a mental illness? “According to Mayo Clinic Mental illness, also called mental health disorders, refers to a wide range of mental health conditions — disorders that affect your mood, thinking and behavior. Examples of mental illness include depression, anxiety disorders, schizophrenia, eating disorders and addictive behaviors”. My diagnoses and definitions: #1 Bipolar Disorder-1... Continue Reading →
Today was a bad day. None of my days have been easy lately, but today was especially hard. This time of year is always difficult for me. The weather starts to change. The skies turn gray. It rains. It gets cold. My mood, inevitably, darkens with the cycle of the seasons. I become gloomy, slow,... Continue Reading →
The holidays are upon us and this year is, hopefully, closing out a year of loss and pain and anger and sadness. Over the past year we have lost a beloved pet (she was with us for 15 years), my dad, my brother, a grandmother and my daughter's innocence and security. Having lived through the... Continue Reading →
i·so·late verb ˈīsəˌlāt/ 1. cause (a person or place) to be or remain alone or apart from others. I isolate. Yup. I admit it. I isolate. If I'm depressed, I isolate. My depressive episodes are all-encompassing. They are brutal and ruinous and each one that I escape relatively unscathed makes me question whether I'll survive... Continue Reading →
When you are in an “elevated” mood your mind will move faster than your mouth can keep up. But trust me, your mouth will try. Rapid, pressured speech is pretty normal for me when I get like this. Verbal vomit. I just prattle and babble and run off at the mouth about anything and everything.... Continue Reading →
Here we are again. We're at the start of a beautiful friendship. Just me and my mania. It always starts out so very... friendly. And positive. No negativity. No hard feelings. That's where we are right now~ the honeymoon phase. Why do I look at it like a happy little honeymoon? Well, let's do a... Continue Reading →
Sleep hygiene. According to one of the therapists I used to see that's all that was needed to solve all of my problems in life: good sleep hygiene. According to the ASA the following tips should help you get better, more productive sleep: Maintain a regular sleep routine Go to bed at the same time.... Continue Reading →
Greetings From A Squiggly Mind 