When Gray Becomes Black

Today was a bad day.   None of my days have been easy lately, but today was especially hard. This time of year is always difficult for me.  The weather starts to change.  The skies turn gray.  It rains.  It gets cold.  My mood, inevitably, darkens with the cycle of the seasons.  I become gloomy, slow,... Continue Reading →

Life Goes On

The holidays are upon us and this year is, hopefully, closing out a year of loss and pain and anger and sadness. Over the past year we have lost a beloved pet (she was with us for 15 years), my dad, my brother, a grandmother and my daughter's innocence and security. Having lived through the... Continue Reading →

It’s Not You. It’s Me.

i·so·late verb ˈīsəˌlāt/ 1. cause (a person or place) to be or remain alone or apart from others. I isolate. Yup. I admit it. I isolate. If I'm depressed, I isolate. My depressive episodes are all-encompassing. They are brutal and ruinous and each one that I escape relatively unscathed makes me question whether I'll survive... Continue Reading →

Can You Hear Me Now?

When you are in an “elevated” mood your mind will move faster than your mouth can keep up. But trust me, your mouth will try. Rapid, pressured speech is pretty normal for me when I get like this. Verbal vomit. I just prattle and babble and run off at the mouth about anything and everything.... Continue Reading →

The Happy Honeymooner

Here we are again. We're at the start of a beautiful friendship. Just me and my mania. It always starts out so very... friendly. And positive. No negativity. No hard feelings. That's where we are right now~ the honeymoon phase. Why do I look at it like a happy little honeymoon? Well, let's do a... Continue Reading →


It has taken years for my doctors and psychiatrists to finally work out a cocktail of meds that actually work to balance out my moods and keep me stable enough to pay my bills, brush my teeth, make my bed, feed my kids. Well, my kids are old enough to feed themselves these days, but... Continue Reading →

Find The Funny

Mental illness; well, any illness, is never by-the-book. Every case will be different and every individual will handle their diagnosis and symptoms differently. Some with humor and enlightenment. Some with fear and isolation. Some like the superheroes that those with a chronic illness have a tendency to be. Me? I have a tendency to vacillate... Continue Reading →

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